Back....again

I haven't used this in two years. I created an account, posted one or two blogs, then forgot about it. I always think I'll start one and that I'll somehow be able to stay interested in the upkeep part, but I never do. I don't know if its because I have nothing interesting to say or if its because I'm just plain lazy.... but whatever the reason, I never can stay in the game. But again, I'll at least try.

I've decided to quit. Quit everything that's unhealthy. Or at least seriously unhealthy. So, I have stopped with tobacco. 6 days ago, I decided to stop taking my Xanax prescription. Yesterday, I decided to stop taking my Lortab prescription. I thought I'd feel the usual withdrawal symptoms I'm used to everytime I skip a day or two. But, much to my surprise, I am not. At least not yet. And its been a week since I took a Xanax and at least 36 hours since I took a Lortab (I also stopped taking Ambien about a week ago but I never took them every single night anyway so I doubt I'll even notice that) so I am wondering if I ever will. Hopefully I won't, which would make it a whole lot easier. I'm just glad that I never decided to start really popping them and taking way more than prescribed. It would probably make quitting ten times harder for me. I did have a really difficult time sleeping the past 3 nights but I finally fell asleep at around 5:00am on Sunday and slept until about 5:30pm that evening. I expected to wake up feeling the need for a Lortab but.... nothing. So I decided to just not take one and see if any symptoms manifested. But they never did and still haven't after another 11 hours. I am extremely surprised that I have just dropped 4 addictive substances with almost no difficulty aside from a couple of nights of little sleep. Maybe its because I don't have those medications in my system at the moment but I am experiencing a strange calmness and relaxed feeling. My only REAL worry is what will I do when my shoulder or neck or back begins hurting really badly and heating pads and OTC stuff doesn't cut it. I mean, I know the medications are prescribed for a reason...and its a reason that is hard to argue with in my case but, I also know that I just can't keep taking narcotics everytime it happens. Well, I suppose technically I could but that's not good for anyone.